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when I would not

Some things you should know before reading the linked article: There is a part of my heart that does not want to post this. It is too intimate. Too raw. To share it myself feels somehow cheap. Yet not to share feels feels like a breach of courage. More than once I asked the reporter to find another family. Trevor's relapse has brought us to our knees and I'm so very weary. I'm weary of fighting. I'm weary of sharing our story for naught. Over the weekend Trevor had a seizure in the pool, which would last three minutes. When I close my eyes I still see his face plunging beneath the water as I tried to get to him. I still feel the panic of trying to lift his convulsing non-responsive body out of the water. I am soul weary with this battle. This battle which includes more than seizures, as if that alone were not enough. I just want to live and love my son in peace. I know it's easier to look the other way and pretend these things don't exist. Yet, everywhe...