I know I layed Babu's cancer out there for all the (cyber) world to see. And then zipped lip.
I wasn't intentionally being secretive. I just wasn't sure how comfortable Bibi & Babu were with sharing so openly. Not everybody lives crazy transparent lives. And so I waited...
Bibi has recently started updating their blog with his progress. He's given us some scares...including today. Jonathan had a voicemail after church that his dad was in the hospital again. Blood clots in both legs. Bibi feels that it's under control for now...
We'll be spending our first Easter apart. Jonathan & Toby fly to Springfield next Saturday.
I'll stay back with the two littlest. Trevy...cause his seizures are SO crazy right now. And Bristel...because she's a cranky travel-and-away-from-mommy-er.
It was not an easy decision. Toby going. There is so much unknown. And we can't promise how Babu will be feeling. But we both deeply feel like it's important for Toby to see his Babu again. Hug him. And Bibi. Make more memories. Did you know that lefties have stronger remembering skills than righties? Toby's a lefty. I'm not sure if all kids are intrigued by their ancestry. But Toby is. And he loves his family passionately. Including Babu. And so he's going.
Hopefully Bristel'll forgive us. Or understand some day...that we just didn't think she could handle it. Especially being away from mommy. I think she's finally over not going to DC.
Recently everything just feels very heavy. And sad. My heart is raw. Tears are always close. And I haven't felt much like talking. Or blogging.
I'm sure it'll pass...