I know I layed Babu's cancer out there for all the (cyber) world to see. And then zipped lip.
I wasn't intentionally being secretive. I just wasn't sure how comfortable Bibi & Babu were with sharing so openly. Not everybody lives crazy transparent lives. And so I waited...
Bibi has recently started updating their blog with his progress. He's given us some scares...including today. Jonathan had a voicemail after church that his dad was in the hospital again. Blood clots in both legs. Bibi feels that it's under control for now...
We'll be spending our first Easter apart. Jonathan & Toby fly to Springfield next Saturday.
I'll stay back with the two littlest. Trevy...cause his seizures are SO crazy right now. And Bristel...because she's a cranky travel-and-away-from-mommy-er.
It was not an easy decision. Toby going. There is so much unknown. And we can't promise how Babu will be feeling. But we both deeply feel like it's important for Toby to see his Babu again. Hug him. And Bibi. Make more memories. Did you know that lefties have stronger remembering skills than righties? Toby's a lefty. I'm not sure if all kids are intrigued by their ancestry. But Toby is. And he loves his family passionately. Including Babu. And so he's going.
Hopefully Bristel'll forgive us. Or understand some day...that we just didn't think she could handle it. Especially being away from mommy. I think she's finally over not going to DC.
::smile::
Recently everything just feels very heavy. And sad. My heart is raw. Tears are always close. And I haven't felt much like talking. Or blogging.
I'm sure it'll pass...
13 comments:
You have given me so many hugs...now I am sending you one too. Hope you have a better day tomorrow.
Katie Ireland
Don't worry about Sweetie Petitie - Gams and Pop Pop will come to the rescue. Remember I don't ever get tired of my grandkids. They just tire me out.
BTW -- where is my Little Monkey picture????????????? MOM
Katie...thanks sweetie!
Mom...the pics are in Toby's lunchbox! In a ziplock! I'm SO glad you reminded me...they've been sitting up on J's desk since he moved them from the steps where I had put them so I wouldn't forget! lol
...danielle
Hoping for a safe journey for J and Toby. Prayers still for Babu.
HUGS, missed you! I'll get back to blogging soon!
For what its worth... we are here.... praying for your family. These seem to be really tough times and we are sorry your family is having to endure so much right now.
My heart just breaks for your family! as if you guys don't have enough on your plate. i know it is a tough decision, but you have to do what is right for your kids. I pray that Babu (i just heart that word!) stays comfortable & strong, and i'm sure seeing little Toby man will be some great medicine for him. Hang in there, and remember that I am here. {{{{HUGS}}}
Jen...I MISSED you too!
Dawson's fam...it means A LOT! Thank you!
Monica...I know you share my sadness. It's so hard. Everything feels SO hard. Ugh! But I have to say...J & I have lived in chronic illness world long enough that we've been able to offer smidgens of advice. For instance...J told his mom she should see if their insurance would pay for a hospital bed. Cause his dad's been sleeping in a recliner! Which just wasn't cuttin' it! And J's mom called to say they'd been approved for a bed! It's little. But feels like we've been able to help a little.
Anyway...
...danielle
Only going to say...I love ya! Chin up...I've been wondering what's been up...you've just been tooo quiet lately. I'm missing our laughs. Madison said this morning on the way to school "Mom..I think your getting fat" Then we both laughed..ahhh..kids
::mental hugs:: and prayers.
Prayers, prayers and more prayers for you sweetheart! I know the skies are gray right now, but your rainbow is coming, I know it!
We want you guys to know that you are always on our mind and in our prayers. And today especially you were thought of and prayed for.
Love you guys,
Mike Carbaugh
Ah D. I'm sure Bristel will understand why she won't be going to visit.
Praying for a safe journey for J and Toby and also keeping up the prayers for Babu. Just remember, even though it sucks to watch it, things always get worse before they get better. I'd say that things are starting to look better already as they got approved for the hospital bed. (although after spending the last two days in one, I can't see why anyone would WANT one in their home *smile*)
{hugs}
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