I tend to be a live out loud kinda girl.
But sometimes...
well...sometimes life is just so heavy. So intense. So overwhemling. That it brings out the recluse in me.
Like lately.
The thing is...I know it'll pass. It always does. And I'll learn something. Grow. Hopefully. Survive. Certainly. Because I have to.
It's just right now. In this particular heavy moment. I would much rather run away to some tropical paradise and sip martinis until Jonathan calls to tell me Trevy's back at home. Happy. And seizure free. With a new head of curls covering the scar and bouncing around the house.
I am a coward after all. I've never denied that.
And I really don't want to live through this next month.
Which is probably why my posts will be random. At best.
But sometimes...
well...sometimes life is just so heavy. So intense. So overwhemling. That it brings out the recluse in me.
Like lately.
The thing is...I know it'll pass. It always does. And I'll learn something. Grow. Hopefully. Survive. Certainly. Because I have to.
It's just right now. In this particular heavy moment. I would much rather run away to some tropical paradise and sip martinis until Jonathan calls to tell me Trevy's back at home. Happy. And seizure free. With a new head of curls covering the scar and bouncing around the house.
I am a coward after all. I've never denied that.
And I really don't want to live through this next month.
Which is probably why my posts will be random. At best.
Comments
HUGS.
I'll be glad to come sip those martinis (well beer at least!) with you!
I feel for you SO MUCH....I sit here and try to imagine what it would be like to have someone tell me Colby had a chance at seizure freedom....It is so foreign to me...I wish I knew something to say to really make things easier for you....
But I think you will see that this month will go quicker than you expect...Try to rest when you can....And know that you have made the best decision for your son....
I wish we lived close so I could hug you tight!!!
Blessings...
Cyndi
lots of hugs and love,
Marcia
Hannah and Blitzen
I know this has GOT to be the most crazy, exciting... yet extremely terrifying time for you.
And, you're right, you will grow and survive. But, the suspense and anticipation is killer.
We will ALL be here to cheer you on this next month. And Praying. And when October comes, still praying and cheering for you.
we love you so much! I just read joel and cynthia's comments and i thought what a blessing we have to be connected with them in Brazil and to know you and the family are just being wrapped up in so many prayers from all over the world.
we love you so much and just know you can rest in the support of all of us praying.
love you bunches,
Connie
Praying for the best for Trevor!
Katie
I'm with you..tropical island and coming back to the reality of everything when the coast is clear. Sometimes I think of how great it would be to escape the craziness that life brings.
We look back now and can't believe how we survived the ACTH, and how scary it was those first few days in the hospital with the whole IS diagnosis. But we always get through those crazy times and think wow, how did we ever do it.
You are an awesome mommy, and you will get through this and anything else that comes along...all for your kiddos.
We aren't traveling the path that you and so many others have traveled with the surgery, but look back and see how far you've come...just gotta keep on going. Maybe it's lame but listen to "The Climb" by Mylie Cyrus. We heard it over and over again on the TV in the hospital with Kylie, and it is now our song for her. I cry when I hear it and well, it's all just so fitting.
Sending hugs and prayers your way,
Jody
I think we can all understand why your posts would be random and just out there....you've got other, much more important things to focus on right now.
Just remember that we are all right here with you and praying alongside of you all for Trevy. {hugs}
i've said it b4 & i'll say it again - i have no idea how hard it is 2 go thru what u're dealing with! i think u r the perfect example of love, strength, grace & beauty!
Sometimes this week I really wished for it. Probably will again. But then what I always remind myself of the good I would have missed, and then (aside from maybe losing my cool for a few days) I can find some reason to plow forward.